I think Solomon affected me too much *shakes fists at the Book of Ecclesiastes*
Am beginning to question the meaning of everything I do.
Honestly, what is the point of it all? I spend the bulk of my conscious time at work, and the rest of my life is spent sleeping.
I once thought I was engaged in highly meaningful work but am now beginning to question that. I'm finding it harder and harder to engage the secular world. I'm supposed to be working on both internal and external communication. Considering that my passion lies in external communication, I'm ironically spending the bulk of my time focussed on internal communication.
We seem to completely enjoy preaching to the choir. I have no problem with internal communication. I think it's great and it helps improve morale and encourage people in what they're doing. My problem is the fact that I seem to be concentrating only on internal communication when my job really should be more about engaging the others.
But too often, we fail to realise that part of engaging the outside world involves letting people know what we're doing and how it will benefit them - public and media relations. If there's no hype (even word of mouth), nobody would even know something exists. But nobody seems to be interested in that.
I hate to say this, but sometimes I feel like I'm being swallowed by a cocoon and am becoming more and more insular. And therein lies the problem - I no longer know why I'm here for.
It's not so much an existential question, but more of a locational/occupational one. Am I really making a difference with what I do?
I'm not sure anymore.