And currently, I'm also feeling like the most marginalised person in the entire world.
I'm stuck in a racist, sexist and ageist society and honestly? It's a tad unpleasant.
Yes, I realise that not everybody falls into any of the above categories. In fact, I know of amazing people out there who will not care if I've got fluro-purple skin, am a hermaphrodite and am two months old. These are not the people I'm talking about.
What I'm talking about is the patronising behaviour I get when I try to make a point.
What I'm talking about is the lack of attention to what I say.
What I'm talking about is the immediate assumption that I cannot be a skilled professional.
What I'm talking about is the waitress in the restaurant who refuses to acknowledge my presence, choosing instead to focus on the guy I'm with.
What I'm talking about is the waiter who passes the bill to my male friend, and who when he realises I'm the one paying, is unable to hide the surprise on his face.
What I'm talking about is the notice on the common noticeboard calling for immigrants to either speak only English and completely immerse themselves in the Aussie culture or leave.
What I'm talking about is the refusal to pass me or any of my female friends the ball during touch footy.
What I'm talking about is hearing from my friends about snide remarks made about Asians.
What I'm talking about is not being taken seriously.
What I'm talking about is thinking I cannot carry a decent, intellectual discussion about politics, technology or the current state of the world.
What I'm talking about is not being included in the Asian community because I'm too "Caucasian", and then being expected by the Caucasians to only be interested in activities organised by the Asian community.
I'm sick and tired of being overlooked.
I'm sick and tired of being stereotyped.
I'm sick and tired of being put into a box.
Am I really not good enough?
Not good enough to do well at work. Not good enough to advance my career. Not good enough to play sports. Not good enough to carry my own weight. Not good enough to talk about the "more important things" in life.
How do I actually believe that I can do something, when people around me believe otherwise?
How do I actually believe that I'm capable, when people around me behave as if I'm not?
How do I actually believe that I have a brain, when people around me don't think so?
And even if I'm really not good enough, why don't you take the time to teach and nurture me, instead of being condescending towards me?
Update: This article is absolute brilliant. [Thanks to Della for the link.]